DiStaNce Has NoThiNG To do WiTh LoVe |
Thursday, 11. November 2004
I want to hurt myself
LiLo
22:35h
SO what is it? is it that i just love drama? i like getting hurt. that cant be it what person in the right mind would want that for themselves. I just dont understand. He hurts me but not physically so i cant hurt him physically, emotionally he gets me every which way he has power over me, and i think he knows it. He doesnt want me to get him anything, is it because he doesnt want to get attached to me? am i really that bad of a person why do I deserve this. GOD, please tell me what i have done to deserve this?? there are worse people in the world and yet here i am struggling to choose between life and death. it sounds all the more sweeter to just get away cause i know this isnt the end of the line, if i keep on living, there will be much more heartbreak in store for me, so whats the point, cant you just save me lord? save me from all this hurt, just take me away? I dont know how much more i can take. My own mother isnt even talking to me. SO WHAT... im dead inside.... i hate this ... Link Friday, 1. October 2004
I will be loved
LiLo
04:08h
mmm... again... again... again... its selfish that i want to be the first thing on his mind, i want to be the last thing on his mind, like he is in mine but that would be selfish. i hate wondering whos on his mind sometimes, i hate wondering if thats the moment he tells me im not the one for him. is it that bad of me to be a priority in his life? i guess so. so i wont anymore, ill just sit here in stupid san diego and just watch from afar. i wont try anymore, i dont want to try anymore. i want to feel happy again. why is it that a year ago around this time i was happy? and now? everything has gone downhill i dont know anyone, no one knows me. im alone in this world and im too afraid to turn to anyone. im done ... Link Thursday, 30. September 2004
i feel bad
LiLo
00:28h
so hmm... lately everything just been... confusing friends arent so much better. because every attempt, all my effort has gone down the drain. in the end its all just a failed "mission" so i decided not to try anymore with them. if they even want my friendship all they have to do is say the word... too bad no one has said it yet. the only thing i have is my boyfriend... i love him. and i miss him terribly. i hate that hes so far away, that all these other couples around me have it so much easier... i could be happy, but my happiness is across the country ... Link Friday, 10. September 2004
Interesting
LiLo
00:52h
aparently this blog is not done. ill finish later ... Link Monday, 8. December 2003
THis BLOG is DONE
LiLo
19:07h
well obviously Distance has everything to do with love... odd close blog.. ... Link ... Next page
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